I haven't written on here in a long time but I thought I would share some of my life changes because there have been so many. Since I last posted I had a difficult falling out with one of my best friends of 7 years and haven’t spoken to her since,I quit my well paying job to go to grad school, then I quit grad school due to the program being different than I expected; I joined a band, I got engaged, I became a receptionist for a law firm, I was downsized and lost my receptionist job and two weeks later got a great new job as a job coach for those with disabilities and I got married. Life is hectic and every day I have something to do beyond work. I volunteer as a tutor, I started to take piano and voice lessons again and I have been making all my meals at home instead of going out and trying to get exercise in my schedule. Also, most every weekend my band has a show.
It is mind boggling how busy life has become but for the most part I am happy. I still have a lot of goals I want to accomplish but now I have less and less time outside of work to do so. I am basically the only job coach with my office and so I have been inundated with all of the clients and it is more than a fulltime job keeping up with everyone. I wouldn't mind working the overtime if I was being paid for it, but I am not at this point. So I am doing a lot of extra work without pay because I care about the outcomes for the clients I work for. So I like the work but there is some to be desired as far as financial security.
Married life is just like regular life. I love my husband and to be honest, I never thought I would meet someone worth marrying. But he was. We have two wonderful furry children and are in no rush to have real ones.He works and goes to school full time and so he is very busy as well. We work well as a team. He likes to cook and I like to eat. He is calm when I am frustrated and I am organized when he is messy. He pushes me to be a better person and reminds me of who I truly am. A part of me will always feel like that high schooler who had her whole life ahead of her, but when I think of those days being over and moving forward it makes me sad. I wish my whole life was still ahead of me. Granted a lot of it still is, but with each passing year it seems you lose some energy and some drive toward those dreams you once had. I will never stop dreaming but it will never be as easy as when I was in high school. Everything has a price and that price is usually something much more than you currently can pay. It is an uphill battle and I have to take a break every once in a while so I don’t hurt myself climbing but I will get to the top. I am just not sure what is at the top for me. I thought it was teaching in my own classroom, but I am trying to keep my options open. I don’t want to write that dream off, but now I know that if it doesn’t happen I can be successful and happy in other ways. And in a way that is half the battle, being happy with yourself no matter the outcome. I can’t say I feel that way everyday, but that is why I married a man who reminds me see the good in the world and in our lives.